Skinny Thoughts

So, while I was lying in your arms tonight and curled up against you in the most comfy tee shirt I’ve ever worn, I realized something. I realized that I love you in a way that I’ve never loved anyone before. I have never truly been comfortable with the idea of spending my life with another person before. The idea, up to this point, has always terrified me. I realized tonight, that I want to spend my life with you as long as you’ll let me.

I also realized that you truly love me tonight. You took me from a weeping ball of dysphoria that was in the fetal position on the floor and built my confidence back up until I was ready to go out with you. This isn’t the first time you’ve done this… but after tonight has been the worst that I have ever felt about dysphoria and after the way I treated you, I don’t know how you did it except for love. 

You are the most amazing, beautiful, handsome, pretty, sexy, caring, supportive, loving person that I’ve ever been with in my life. I will never find another person like you and I hope that I never have to. You were the first person that I came out to and you’ve been so perfectly supportive and you’ve treated me simply perfect about it in every way. I’m here for you in any way, any time, and any place that you need me to be.

You say you’re not perfect, and you’re not. I wouldn’t love you if you were. You do, on the other hand, make me perfectly happy.

I’m gonna love you forever. I hope you don’t mind that too much.

Love,

Panda (everyone, but the word stylings of panda.)

I vow to try and not be a jealous prick. I vow to trust you and your judgment. I vow to be there for you on your best and worse days. I vow to hold you when you want or need to be held. I vow to help you pick out clothes if you want. I vow to do the best I can for you everyday. I vow to kiss your forehead if I can reach it. I vow to hold your hand and kiss you in front of my friends. I vow to support you in everything you do. I vow to protect you and always have your back. I vow to be the best boyfriend ever. I vow to love you as long as you’ll let me and not let you leave without a fight. I love you.